20

Talking to brick walls

Is only effective when

You get a breakthrough

18

You think that I'm cute
So why do you get mad when
Someone else does too?

16

Quarters are costly

When you cannot find any

And need laundry done.

14

Grasping for my dick

I forget I'm just a girl

With more balls than you

Logic and Emotions

Logic and emotions
Two inescapably human experiences
Constantly battling for rule of my heart.
Logically I know my heart is an organ.
Involuntarily forcing blood through my body and lungs
Circulating my life's essence and fiber of my being
Beating to my own drum of pure existence.
It works hard for me
Simply so I can...be.
So why is it that this cavity in my chest
Feels full of something more like tempered glass?
Emotionally my heart has its moments.
Some days, nothing can get through;
Bulletproof protection over my soul
Pyrex infused determination to keep me in the kitchen when it gets hot
But other days its at its breaking point
Involuntarily causing me pain at the sight of despair
Circulating others' ill will and non-belief all the way to my head
Beating me down because my logical life plan
Would have had me married with a family by now
It wont fracture enough to cause me real, felt pain
But shatter into a million bits for me to piece together again
Logic and emotions
Still battling for my heart
Logically, I shouldn't love you.
My brain tries to kick the ass of my emotions every time I feel to tell you
But I do it anyway
Because my emotions do kick the ass of my feelings when I don't.
Actual...physical pain caused by something I can't logically explain.
Are my emotions insane?
Got me feeling stronger and in ways never logically possible.
Like you've been here before
Like I've known you before
Like I've loved you before
Not quite like deja vu
Because logically, you're still brand new.
Because emotionally, I've never felt quite like this
Like my once thought could only be artificially created
Laundry list of personally added attributes, can exist
And you do exist
And so, emotionally, yes, I love you
The logic within me still fighting to be heard
Throwing up real and imagined red flags
Trying to trip up my emotions
As they charge forward and trample them instead
The emotions saying, fuck it.
I love you.
Its said all's fair in love and war
But what's fair when love IS war?
Logic and emotions
Battling to the end in my heart.

11 February 2010